4/12/13. dear elsie.

"If it's a genuine relationship, well, it's going to just happen naturally. You can't plan for it. If there are weird, awkward feelings, you probably not gonna do so well." Mum and one of my friends told me that yesterday, Elsie. Do you think so? I don't... I can't really relate to that. Isn't it easier being a girl than it is being a boy? Mean, my sis just calls and talks about how some weird guy took her out and she just thought it was friendly and then he did it again, and it was, weird... And Mum and Dad just give her relatively normal relationship, you know what I mean? But, when I do that, they just laugh at me. Heh, maybe because she's older.
      You should come back. I mean, it was fun. Really. Should... just come back and live. Come on. You're cooler than that. Get up. Do you hear me? I do not accept this. You are not going to do that. Again.
      I got a job... You know. I could've come gotten you flowers with my own money. Or Lindt hazelnut, like you wanted. I'm still... just, really awkward with women. It's probably your fault. You're not normal, you know that? You're like, a boy. Compliment. Well, I like to remember.
      You know what I liked? It was like, I, me. I could be the only person talking to you and then, well, and then, we could talk for a long time. That was cool. I can't do that with girls anymore. Like in person. Your fault again. Maybe I'm just trying to compare you to everyone I meat and it's just like, they don't even come close to...
      Oh, [meet], sorry. I'm writing in pen. Where was I? Well I, I don't remember what they don't come close to so, I'll just... You know, you were the best conversation practice partner.

Signed:

Eisle

For:

elsie, 1913 to 1964.